A hug wins a million words

someone give me a hug at the time that i'm most unprepared. i was very touched and grateful that our path ever cross. my day is brighten up and i felt energized!

i was chatting and sharing with an senior person this morning. though the session was short, it was good. somehow i felt assured about my future direction.

My heart is aching ...

as i'm thinking about you, missing those happy moments & silly we shared last yr, i realise that i need to find time to chat with you ... and as i have such thoughts, by chance, you came close. but as you come close, you got into trouble again ... how can i help you? where are you? 

at wee hours ...

strange strange strange ... i'm still awake at this hour. will i be able to survive the day, knowing that it will b a long day.

strange strange strange ... unexpectedly, i wrote 700 words over 1 nite for my assignment which will due at 2359 on 23 Mar 09. either this topic is easy for me or i'm writing rubbish ... hahaha

oh yah ... i have a few new discoveries today ... 

1) i found a new speaking software ... next time can make it talk to me when i'm bored!

2) i realise eyesight may not neccessary get worse as a person age

3) i realise that my cell leader is actually a very good biblical teacher

4) it's time to change the outlook of this blog

5) spanny seems to be allegy to the new dog food

6) how lovely my YEP-mates are even though the trip has long ended

7) i miss the hugs n jokes we shared during the yep trip

8) i still thinking of re-visiting UK

9) i'm able to do finance without errors at wee hours

10) i have so many new discoveries within a day, remember and able to list all of them n i'm still wide awake

hmmm ... what shld i do now?

wash clothes? iron clothes? vacuum floor? mop floor? clean window? count stars? count lamb? count how many words r there in the book of Genesis? of cos i'm silly-talking lah ... cant be so brainless lor!!!

I'm loving it ... 我就喜欢

i'm loving my short 1-week holiday. despite having with sore throat, i still go buffet lunch with mama n auntie n had lots of delicious food. talking abt lunch, i had lunch with someone at centrepoint, had lunch with mama & auntie at hyatt hotel and tml lunch will be with somebody at heeren ... see i have lunch 3 days in a row at orchard leh!!! how can i not like holiday as it's the best time to catch up with ppl who u seldom see or always see but no time to chat.

apart from catching up over lunch, another thing to mention is the wonderful time spend with spanny. now that my mama is working, spanny is rather bored at home cos i'm not her main companion at home. since last week, things has change slightly. my bro has been dropping his helper at my place. her presence keeps spanny from boredom cos she will accommodate all requests by naughty spanny! 

dogs are really no good in hiding their emotions ... it's shown all over spanny's face, eyes, tail, paws, ... all parts of her body that she's happy ... hahaha ... n this's the time that she's the most adorable. well, i mean she is adorable everytime but in those moments, she is just too lovable that i can help but to squeeze her in my arms. heehee ...

in so many years of living life with spanny, i have learnt a lot from her. sometimes i really envy her for being able to express her love n joy with not suppression ... shouldnt love n joy be shared? why do humans like to hide these positive feelings? prehaps, sometimes we should strip off those expectations that we have put on others n put down our pride. 

these are very simple solutions for life's most difficult problem. yet, life's simplest lesson takes a lifetime to master. from tues lunch, i realise i've discover something (positive). I've learnt something which has never ever cross my mind n i'm still learning ... ...

The Source

I lift up my eyes to the hills -- where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.

Psalm 121:1-2

recently i'm quite chained up with thoughts in my mind n choose to isolate from the crowd. i know this's no good. therefore, i create "opportunities" for myself to standing in the crowd but i know deep in my heart, i'm not enjoying those mandatory assignments.

i think i have yet to come to term with the inner self and even after sharing with the very few people, who i feel comfortable sharing, i still cannot comprehend a lot of things. i know i have yet to find the solution cos my heart can never trick to my mind. in the midst of all these, i'm truely thankful to the few good soul who i can share with. 

i start to see some light when somebody sms me Psalm 121:1-2. this reminds me of the source that always provide and never run dry. the source that provides unconditionally, without fail. the source which re-align my heart and mind. sometimes in life, what we need is just a statement of  encouragement. the rest is redundant!

Beautiful Mind 2

it always set me thinking when something serious happened to my kid. on tues, i was chatting with my sweetie-pie team members in the hall. suddenly my bubby teacher came to tell me something abt a boy yet before she can finish, a few ppl just crowd near us.

i look ard n saw my chubby adorable boy eyes' teary red. a mal teacher pat his shoulder n asked if he is ok. only then then i realise he was bullied ... this's how slow i am!!! i'm quite in talking term with this boy n i asked him if he wanted to talk n then pull him to a corner. it took him a while to start talking ... i felt so sad when i heard his story.

usually children from mainsteam sch r either badly bullied or big bullies. but in most case, had very bad experience of being bullied so a new sch is like a ray of hope to them. but then it's also not easy for the rest of the class to accept new students. he happen to b 1 who the class do not like n thus not many ppl like to talk to him. so i always make an effort to talk to him.

something kids just want u to hear them out ... this doesnt need a penny but a big heart. from my experience with children, once u give them the respect n listen to them, the bonding is very different! i make an effort to chat the chubby-adorable boy n he got so comfortable that he called me "mum" by accident. haha ... this's so funny!

Cloning

weeks back, i was still quite bothered over a colleague who would be away for around 2 weeks. i need to admit that my focus is more on taking over her teaching role rather than understanding why she needs to go on MC.

not that i'm doubtful of my ability. just dun like things to be passed over to me at such a improper manner. also, knowing this colleague, it wouldnt be an enjoyable experience to take over her role. true enough, the 1st thing she picked on me is on PP1 marking.

she commented that i was too lenient n in front of the kids, she said she want to minus marks for no number statement, no this n no that ... i'm not a MOE-trained teacher n sorry to say that she's neither 1. based on my 1 yr experience, i learnt that a marker should, thru the students' answer, understand the child's flow of thoughts when he/she is attemping the question.

i dun see any reason why i shouldnt reward a child with full marks when he/she has already spell out his understanding? luckily there's a very experience MOE-trained teacher in our midst to consult. anyway i still let her bring back the papers to review.

back to taking over her class ... i was only notified via email merely 1 week in advance about she going on 2 weeks MC. in the end, the doctor gave only 1 week MC. even so, i still cont to teach until yesterday, she started her 1st lesson with newly adapted style, which set me thinking ...

she's using more tools & aids to make her lesson more interesting which i think it's good n i find her new style quite familar ... cos i'm was using it earlier! mayb she think this's more engaging. haha ... anyway this's a new discovery which i can gossip abt here ... 

Beautiful Mind

While i was chating with the girls yesterday over our over-run tuition session, they commented that the new girl has 小姐脾气. apparantly this's not a norm amongst the girls there but then i was thinking ... what is norm?

norm being defined by practises and behaviour of the majority. so i suppose most girls is able to control their emotion better than the new girl. but isnt this too demanding for a girl, as young as 10 yrs old? i frankly dun think i'm able to do so, probably also cos i'm ASD.

talking abt ASD and i'm playing with my thoughts on this topic with the definition of norm ... what if one day, majority of our society is made up of people with Autism, will the behavioural issues result from Autism become a norm? How will this world be like if this day ever come? Will i be jobless by then?