Thursday, May 14, 2009

In deep thoughts

i'm so flooded with my flow of thoughts. it's not unusual that i will space-out during free time. but these days, my thought is unusually stirring. it seems like nothing much has happened yet thru reflection of my routine work life, i felt a sense of discomfort. shouldn't i rejoice over it?!?!

reflecting my recent chat with jack, i once again thought of that moment which both of us trembled in awe! i want to tear in joy ... that's 1 thing i want to boost about the amazing handprint mr J has stamped in our hearts. truely, coincidence is a man-defined term cos everything is created for a reason!

despite the discomfort i'm experiencing, i know that time is not right yet! i know i have to hang on ... i have to learnt to cope a life of being surrounded by weird people ... i'm in the process of growing, running the race that lead me to completeness ...

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Love is simple

I like today's speaker. although this's the 1st time i hear her live, i like her as much as her husband. they're indeed a very blessed couple. even looking at their shadows, i can see God's handprint! and those who can hear them preach were even more blessed!!!

it touches me the most when he choosed to sit at a corner of the last row while she preached. he sliently supported his wife of 42 yrs at that cold corner. despite the cooling weather due to sudden downpour this morning, every heart in the auditorium was warmed!

everytime pastor marion mentioned her husband, i will turn to look at him. although he didnt have any outburnt of laughter, i can see that 嘴角的幸福 and this is love.

Friday, May 8, 2009

In anticipation ...

have been in deep thoughts recently on many issues. thinking about work, about AWARE, about a dear sister, about colleagues, about God and about ppl around me ...

in the last conversation with my dear sister jack, i was so motivated to know that she has picked up the bible n read 1 chapter a day. she specifically highlighted John 14:1-4 to me. God has made our hearts so closely bond that we understand what these verse means to us without much explanation!

n then last nite, out of desperation, i was trying to air my chest to a little girl i met at msn. she was doing proj discussion in her quarter-opened eyes. i was telling her that my profession requires ones to self-reflect & self-motivate. i'm starting to feel emotionally-drained. PUSH! --- remedy by the little girl.

nowadays i will visit facebook quite frequently n whenever i see friends upload photos taken from overseas trip, i felt very deprivated! as much as i want to remove those "victim" thoughts, i cant deny my emotions on certain things. n even so, i guess i can only look forward and move on and PUSH hard that the next stage of my life will quickly arrive ...