i dun want to deny those things that are gripping me and i cast all these out with the power from the Almighty!!! it's really not easy so i keep reminding myself that i'm in the midst of the preparation process. if i cant even overcome such small things now, how can i be entrust with more responsibilities in the near future?
ever since last sat event, all doubt is clear. i nod my head to the offer, which i refused to response to few mths back. i'm filled with excitement since then and experienced another peak of thrill last nite ... God is good! it may just be an exclaimation with 3 simple words, these 3 words just sum it all!
in the past, i used to believe in passion. recently i discovered the importance of vision. now i learn the essence of action cos without it, passion & vision is just nothing ...
Passion + Vision + Action =====> _ _ _
Monday, July 28, 2008
Monday, July 21, 2008
1st Summer LEGers Gathering
as jay n laolao are back, we had our cosy n fun gathering this evening ... had dinner at a rest in bugis that serve YN food and went TCC/CCT/TTC/CTC for a drink ... we chat n had so much fun that unconscienciously turn the place into a mad hse n the staff there had to remind us to lower down our vol ... heehee
it's so nice to see everyone after so many mths n it's my pleasure to answer all questions related to my job too ... there're far too many nice nice things abt this team of ppl ... God is really good ...
mr J, You hold the key to my heart ...
it's so nice to see everyone after so many mths n it's my pleasure to answer all questions related to my job too ... there're far too many nice nice things abt this team of ppl ... God is really good ...
mr J, You hold the key to my heart ...
Saturday, July 19, 2008
...
while i was recovering from yesterday event, i had another one today ... it definitely wasnt a good feeling esp experiencing 2 in a row ... how can i find comfort, truth and righteousness?
if this is part of my preparation process, then i guess i have to learn to swallow it n i believe mr J will help me ...
if this is part of my preparation process, then i guess i have to learn to swallow it n i believe mr J will help me ...
Monday, July 14, 2008
A moment of doubt, a ray of light
becos i'm rushing to complete the changes for the 1st prelim paper, that's why i'm still up but i'm really really very tired yet there's something i want to pen down here ... actually can wait till tml but after realising my dear men has added an entry in her blog despite her tiredness, i decide to challenge myself in a similar aspect but pardon me of any grammer or spelling errors made cos my eyes are getting smaller like garfield ...
just 2 hrs ago, i was sharing with my colleague via msn and i once again felt God's speaking to me ... last week i start to have the negative feelings abt my job and doubting my purpose in PL. although seeing the kids sort of bring comfort to me, it is a temp effect only. as my heart is consumed by darkness, i met a surprise person at SCEM and thru a casual conversation, he found out my occupation and told me abt the need to setup a support group in church for parents with autism kids ... i was totally speechless at the every moment, esp i heard him saying that in the past, there were parents who left bethel cos we dun offer such support group ...
many thoughts arise and i really want to thank God for all those Christian parents who honour God for that they receive gifts from heaven --- all children are gifts from heaven --- a statement made by my sch supervisor ...
there are so many ppl suffering out there ... if i leave PL, i will cont to be me and they be them and we're strangers ... but if i stay in PL, i can acquire the skill and knowledge to impact the lives of the ppl in need ... isnt this obvious??? why am i so blind ... ???
and coincidentially, my dear colleague also shared of the same sentiment ... and the best part is, we both recognise the possibility of long term overseas community work in the future ... and the best part is, we're both doing as much as we can for our parents now ...
i seriously think that this series of events is not coincident and to have a colleague sharing the sentiment, passion and mission is definitely a privilege and as i count my blessings, God also reminded me that this person has yet to be a child of God ... ok fine, i got your message. that's y i attend Fish4men, isnt it?
just 2 hrs ago, i was sharing with my colleague via msn and i once again felt God's speaking to me ... last week i start to have the negative feelings abt my job and doubting my purpose in PL. although seeing the kids sort of bring comfort to me, it is a temp effect only. as my heart is consumed by darkness, i met a surprise person at SCEM and thru a casual conversation, he found out my occupation and told me abt the need to setup a support group in church for parents with autism kids ... i was totally speechless at the every moment, esp i heard him saying that in the past, there were parents who left bethel cos we dun offer such support group ...
many thoughts arise and i really want to thank God for all those Christian parents who honour God for that they receive gifts from heaven --- all children are gifts from heaven --- a statement made by my sch supervisor ...
there are so many ppl suffering out there ... if i leave PL, i will cont to be me and they be them and we're strangers ... but if i stay in PL, i can acquire the skill and knowledge to impact the lives of the ppl in need ... isnt this obvious??? why am i so blind ... ???
and coincidentially, my dear colleague also shared of the same sentiment ... and the best part is, we both recognise the possibility of long term overseas community work in the future ... and the best part is, we're both doing as much as we can for our parents now ...
i seriously think that this series of events is not coincident and to have a colleague sharing the sentiment, passion and mission is definitely a privilege and as i count my blessings, God also reminded me that this person has yet to be a child of God ... ok fine, i got your message. that's y i attend Fish4men, isnt it?
Friday, July 11, 2008
Oh my 天!
As I once again slowly walking towards the gate of darkness, God grabbed me by my shoulders and shook me so hard that I finally woke up. I rubbed my eyes and saw that ray of light shinning ahead of me ... then I realised that this is the path that leads to Him.
It's another revival from the Almighty. I have never understood how big an impact my current occupation can have till today. How silly I am to keep thinking abt the least important ...
Oh btw today during recess, a P5 girl saw me from a far and ran towards me and wanted to hug me. It may sound a bit 夸张 cos I'm only on mc for 1 day ... actually autism kids like physical touch and appreciate relationships like you and me but 1 common misconception ppl have abt autism is aloof. Aloof is just 1 of the many profile of autism. I have come across many others who enjoy talking ... of cos for those who like physical touch, they wouldnt go around touching people, or rather, they touch you cos they like you (^ - ^)
There's also a boy who always call me 'auntie Lam' ... in fact he will call his female teacher as 'auntie'. After numerous attempt of correcting him, i give up and ask his asst form teacher. Her reasoning is he only address female teachers, whom he likes, as auntie ... These kids are really lovely. Each and every one of them are precious creations from heaven!!!
It's another revival from the Almighty. I have never understood how big an impact my current occupation can have till today. How silly I am to keep thinking abt the least important ...
Oh btw today during recess, a P5 girl saw me from a far and ran towards me and wanted to hug me. It may sound a bit 夸张 cos I'm only on mc for 1 day ... actually autism kids like physical touch and appreciate relationships like you and me but 1 common misconception ppl have abt autism is aloof. Aloof is just 1 of the many profile of autism. I have come across many others who enjoy talking ... of cos for those who like physical touch, they wouldnt go around touching people, or rather, they touch you cos they like you (^ - ^)
There's also a boy who always call me 'auntie Lam' ... in fact he will call his female teacher as 'auntie'. After numerous attempt of correcting him, i give up and ask his asst form teacher. Her reasoning is he only address female teachers, whom he likes, as auntie ... These kids are really lovely. Each and every one of them are precious creations from heaven!!!
Monday, July 7, 2008
3rd in 13 months
the funeral i attend yesterday was the 3rd one in my dad's family within 13 months ... i cannot comprehend what does these numbers signify but i know something is going on within my family ... i have a lot of mix feelings esp from the response of the others ... shld i be happy? shld i be sad? or perhaps, i shldnt even react!
the past is already over and the unfulfilled events will remain unfulfilled and the regrets will forever reside in man's heart ...
the past is already over and the unfulfilled events will remain unfulfilled and the regrets will forever reside in man's heart ...
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Beautiful Saviour
It was quite a while since my last entry ... not that I have nothing to update. Instead, life is busy especially this week and I slept merely 5 hours everyday ... plus the new time table, my responsibility has increased.
Yesterday was a hectic day. I have to teach from 8am to 1pm with only 30 mins recess break in-between but surprisingly, I work till 6pm and attend cell at 8pm ... God is good. I can feel His power in me ... that mighty power that I have never ever experience in my life. I also want to thank God for my WONDERFUL cell members.
Oh well ... i still have a lot a lot to say but no time lah ... tml is my deadline for submission of 2 prelim papers ...
Taken with Pastor Joyce and my sexy mentor (look at her waistline)
Yesterday was a hectic day. I have to teach from 8am to 1pm with only 30 mins recess break in-between but surprisingly, I work till 6pm and attend cell at 8pm ... God is good. I can feel His power in me ... that mighty power that I have never ever experience in my life. I also want to thank God for my WONDERFUL cell members.
Oh well ... i still have a lot a lot to say but no time lah ... tml is my deadline for submission of 2 prelim papers ...
Taken with Pastor Joyce and my sexy mentor (look at her waistline)
Pastor Peter Lui with the 4 legendary beauties.
Ahem ... ahem ... heehee : p
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