Addicted to Mr Jesus

Just read a blog entry which touches my heart and set me into deep thoughts ... we, humans, are just too tiny ... we were all taught in school that the power of team work thru the chopstick story. "Together, we unite" ... this sounds so wonderful, yet even when our hands are joined, our hearts are not bonded together. While we can do so little with our hands, our mind and heart fail us further cos we either fear, doubt, depressed, dishearten, ... etc ... we are always obstacles by these "unneccesary stones" that comes into our way.

For the past 45 mins, my heart is beating 100000000 times faster than usual ... i feel that that blog entry has a message for me and it's beyond words. We have limited ability and those negative thoughts and emotions is causing us even more inefficient. So how? Commit suicide??? Hahaha ... what a cowardice act!!! The only solution to this is to commit ourselves to God, cos everything is possible for the Almighty.

Months ago, I was questioning myself if I have made the right choice to study and this thought has made me inefficient in doing assignments and studying for exam. When my results is out, I couldnt believe my eyes. I rubbed my eyes, then zoomed and then finally printed out the result slip and realise that what my eyes have seen was correct. I seriously think that I dont deserve a B cos I have doubt my dear God but He is so merciful that He still bless and love me, despite that mistrust I had in Him.

Now that I think back, if I have that faith, I would have score even better. How silly I was ... God is always with me at every moment in my life. ("He has given it to you, dun doubt" ... someone said this to me when I first lose faith in Him) Things happen for a reason. Although He dont always reveal the reason to me, His love and blessing is definitely sufficient for me and you and you and you and you and you and you ... ... ... ... ...

Mr Jesus, I want to be addicted to You so that I can smile non-stop and jump jOyFuLlY. WooHoo!!! Grant me that faith to cross over that rocky path of "unneccessary stones" in my life.